TRU's Confession

Hey guys so this week for me has been pretty hectic. Several decisions to make and yet so little time. I didn't tell you all that I was thinking about joining the Reserves for the Air Force but only for financial reasons. Well I talked to my parents about it and they thought it was a great idea. However, when you join there are several vaccinations that must be made and I'm allergic to a lot of things. So if my body couldn't take one of the vaccination shots, I could die. It sounds crazy but I'm serious.

Anyway, this week has been very unexpected as well LOL! The relationship I had with this individual was truly genuine and I really thought it was unbreakable. However, I guess all good things must come to an end right? Well, its been about a year since I last spoke to him and to my surprise he apologizes to me. I can't really explain how I felt when he apologized because that moment was something I thought would never happen LOL! Why? Because. There are arguments then there are arguments that set things in a perspective. Sometimes it ends things in a good or bad way. I don't know how I feel about him but I know that I still love him as a friend.

Even though I said I hated him over and over I never really meant it. It's like I had to wear a mask that shielded all the hurt, anger, and sadness that I went through because of what was said. After all drama I went through, it's crazy how I can still say 'I LOVE YOU' so easily. I can't get rid of him; I tried but I just couldn't because I need him here. I see him as someone I could never stop loving, no matter how much it hurts me in the process. I feel like we met for a reason. And it's ridiculous how much a friend means the world to me even though we've known on another for a few years.

Wow, I kinda over did it huh? Well tell me what you think.
Have you ever been through this or something similar to my situation?

<3 TRU